My shriveled up ovaries have some good, mature follicles ready for O any time now. There is a "Prominent Uterine Arcuate and pelvic adnexal vessels". This seems to mean there is a 'dip' in the top of my uterus. Google suggests it is the lesser concerning type of uterine malformation that occurs. I wonder though whether this is a new development after pregnancy as I have never seen this mentioned EVER in previous ultrasounds (and there have been a lot.
The most stark item on the report (for me). G12P2. 12 pregnancies and 2 children. That is insane. Part of me wonders what the hell I am doing.
I sat back this afternoon and read through this entire blog. from my 2 major losses in 2008. I was so very lost. So broken. I have come such a long way since then. Even reading back on it it feels so surreal. It was so intense, clearly the worst year of my life. But reading back on it I feel so, so very sad for 27 year old me. It really reminded how much my eldest daughter's birth genuinely saved my heart and soul.
So today's results..... I fell like this is all going to come back to "bad luck:". Nothing significant that is causing the losses, just another turn at bad luck. There has never been a reason. I've had 9 losses now. 9. 9 losses with no real connection. Nothing that signifies a simply problem. well, actually, nothing that signifies any problem at all. These latest losses could just simply be poor egg quality from an ageing reserve.
I did read some articles that refer to "super fertile women". So women who conceive and implant eggs that really should never make it that far. That would be one of the things that make the most sense. I am super fertile. I usually get pregnant if my husband just looks at me at the right time of the month.
Part of me thinks that the OBGYN is going to give me two options....
1. continue on and try naturally for as long as we can handle it emotionally
2. IVF with full PGD testing to ensure a healthy embryo.
I was willing to do a medicated cycle, but my gut tells me that wont be on offer. I think that the fact that you can see a dozen or more eggs maturing on the scan will limit any medication use for the risk of multiples.
It's all speculation I guess. Once again we continue on try naturally this month (O imminent from scan) and then if not successful we will go from there. OBGYN is first week of April on about 7 or 8 dpo. so just that tiny little bit too early to know if this month is successful or not.
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